Christmas laugh

Today I went shopping for a friend's Christmas gathering. She has requested that we wear "ugly" Christmas sweaters...My thoughts?!

Great!! Now...Where do I find one?

I of course want all the bells and whistles. I want it to have a wreath for a neck, a glowing Santa and a battery pack needed to light Rudolph's nose. Unfortunately, to find that this time of year is rather difficult!

I went to start my search at the local Goodwill. Now, those of you that know me well, know that I despise Goodwill... BUT, I went. I didn't find my sweater of choice, but I did end up standing in the dressing room cracking up laughing...I found joy instead. In the place that I would have never have thought to look!

I'm standing in the dressing room thinking...

1) I'm looking for a hideous sweater, in the store that I hate the most.
2) OMG...Why is everything stained?!
3) I found this ridiculous ski sweater that is the most hideous shades of teal, purple & yellow, But is it Christmas or just Winter? (Honestly, it looked like an Easter egg vs. a Christmas sweater)
4) I love this moment... :)

I guess for me...on a day that was already pretty awesome, it got capped off with laughter! Laughter has its moments & lately have been few and random. I'm so grateful for this one.

I also was asked by a lady looking at sweaters with me...(as i'm cracking up laughing to myself, probably looking crazy!)

"Is this sweater still in style?" Is it bad, that I didn't have the heart to tell her "NOOOOO! RUN...". Instead I said, "I'm sure that would look really nice on you!"

Honestly, I think this whole shopping experience was a test for me. A test to see...
How grateful am I? How compassionate am I to the needs of others? How blessed am I?

Thank You Lord for today...I am very grateful for the laughs and lessons!

BTW, Never found a sweater!! The hunt continues....


-Till Next Time, KT

Joy!!

It's that time of the year for joy! The holidays are upon us and I'm sure that all of you are making holiday plans...I for one am debating what to do!

To go home or Not to go home?! That is the question...Right now, I'm thinking not, ask me in a week and i'm sure I would have changed my mind. :)

However, on a HIGH note...I GOT A JOB! Not just any job...A job at a company I WANT to work for!! I could have taken the position last week, but decided against it...I just didn't have it in me to know that I was lying to the employer. After making that decision, I was kicking myself pretty hard...the self doubt kicked in.

*Why didn't I just stick it out?
*What if I won't get offered anything else?
*It was a paycheck...which is still better then NOTHING!

I'm honestly so proud of my decision! I'm proud that I didn't take the position even if others thought that I should. I'm so happy that I didn't listen to my doubt and think that it could all be true. (Although, I had my far share of kicking myself!). Over all, 1 week to the day, I was offered a position where I can really grow and watch myself be happy. I'm happy that I will be working with a good manager, I'm happy that I will be working with a small team in a non stressful sales environment! I think I will honestly be happy there. I think its finally time in my life to focus on #1...me.

Today is a good day. I need to be THANKFUL in that and let myself enjoy this moment...tomorrow will bring new stresses, I'm sure!



-Till Next Time, KT

I love my friends...

Beaver Bend, Oklahoma- November 2010


-Till Next Time, KT

Ahhhhhhh!

Life is hard!

I've learned some amazing lessons this year. Actually I am still in the process of learning some...

*Love daily
*Be thankful in the good times & the bad. Trust me...not an easy lesson.
*Patience...I have little to almost none.
*Live your dream...whatever that is in the moment. But don't leave an income until you have another :)
*Travel the world...I did a lot of the US this summer and can only wait to see more!
*Listen to those that are wiser then you. They have been the before, listen to their lessons and mistakes, instead of making your own.
*Don't be so darn hard headed!
*Admit defeat when the time is right.
*Improve yourself and your spirit to be a better you, daughter, sister, friend & girlfriend.
*Listen to those around you....and don't talk. Just listen.
*We have no control of what happens in life...we just choose the path on which to follow. God is so merciful to guide us to a decision and then allows us a choice. Do we pick the right one?! Sometimes, but when we don't, he pulls us back to the correct choice when WE are ready. (GOD, I'm ready!!)
*And thanks to Ms Sarah...OWN the decisions that you make. This is still a hard one for me. I make decisions and then doubt them like crazy...I just need to make a decision, right or wrong...and then own it. Own that it sucks that I made the wrong decision! Or that it's awesome...!

What life lessons have you learned this year?


-Till Next Time, KT

To Whom Much is Given, Much is Expected...

The title of my blog today is: To Whom Much is Given, Much is Expected...

What does this mean to you?!

To me, this means that when we are blessed with opportunities and blessings, we need to step up to the plate and fulfill the expectations. When the Lord opens a door for you, you are given the choice to walk thru. Will you?

*Would you choose to if you knew what would be expected of you on the other side?

*Would you be willing to walk thru the crazy times to find your blessing at the end?

*Would you be willing to sacrifice yourself for the needs of others?

I think that everyday we are challenged to do just this. But, do we listen?

Sometimes...Sometimes Not.

I challenge myself and each of everyone of you to be the hands and feet to those in need. Maybe it's not bicycling across the country to raise clean water for Africa...(Melissa! I'm so proud of you!) Maybe it's just finding two hours a week to volunteer at a local shelter, or maybe buy a bag of groceries for someone who needs them more.

Because: To Whom Much is Given, Much is Expected. Think on it and let me know your comments of what you are committing to do...

Life on the Road...

Random fact about me...I LOVE RANDOM! I love the randomness of road trips...the crazy towns along the highway, the random trinkets and trash at trucker gas stations, plus the extremely random people you meet on the road! On road trips you see things that you will never see anywhere else...so today is Random Day!!

Thoughts and life goals...

So, I'm thinking that today I will start a random fact/thought of the day about me...you know those things about yourself that you normally wouldn't tell anyone...but since I only have 3 blog followers, what the hell?!

*I am trying to simplify my life. I figure I don't need 150 DVDs & 6 boxes of already read books...WHY?! I think that I am figuring out that when I was in my marriage, I felt the need to fill my life with "Stuff"...maybe filling a void of some kind. Ummm...more thought on that at a later time. But I know now that I do not NEED to have every Disney movie on DVD...IF I ever have children, I'm sure I can find a way for them to see my beloved classics. So...out with the stuff and in with the joy!

Okay now for something fun/strange about me...I enjoy blowing my nose in the shower. I know....strange, gross- Call it what you may...Don't act like you've never done it. :)

Feel free to leave your thoughts and comments...

-Till Next Time, KT

Enjoy!!

Who says that we can't enjoy our lives?! As I am sitting at a nice restaurant enjoying a nice drink...I'm highly enjoying my life. I hope that everyone gets that opportunity! Wether that be enjoying a nice night out, striving for a far fetched goal or getting to the top of your dreams.

I am currently learning the joy of dreaming. I feel like in life, I was never given that chance, because we didn't have the money or the opportunity. I think that we all should have that...I am currently learning to let my dreams be verbal and that when I am ready God will fulfill those. I know that I will have obstacles along the way, but I know that through the fights...Life will be good. My current dreams are:

*2 houses - Beach house & Tudor Planation somewhere with some land and a tree lined driveway. Both, must have an in home library, with wrap around ladders.

*A family with children, which I want to able to stay home with full time.

*The ability to travel full time. Travel the world...not just the "normal" places...but the world. With no financial restraints. I want to be able to eat in the best restaurants and sleep in the best hotel suites.

*I also want to be able to hire a nanny to travel with us for the children. Not to be a hands on mother, but someone that I trust to be with the kids when I can't.

* I want to be able to bless the world with relief. Rather that be financial relief or physical relief. I want to be able to provide to the homeless man on the street, the friends that are fundraising for worthy causes, pet abuse, child abuse, rape victims & all the people of the world that have needs for food, water and housing.

May you realize the dreams that you have & God bless you with them.

Till next time.

-KT

Motivation None

Ok...so I have Motivation: None. Sounds like a James Bond mission, huh?!

Just thought I'd share...

Reflection

So, those of you that know me closely know that I am not a night person. :) I for one rather like my sleep and enjoying a good nap is a known favorite past time.

But tonight, I am wide awake. Maybe it's the all the sleep I got today or the anger and confusion burning inside me. Why the anger?! Because we (I) let people close to me control my feelings. Whose to say in life what is right or wrong for us? Family....Friends....Ministers? Who gives them the right?! I guess more then anything right now I am feeling bitter...

For some reason I have always felt the need to be "good". Well, that the hell is that?! "Good" for me is way different then what it is for the young members of Al-Queda... For me it's to live up to some expectation. To be the good child, to get good grades, to have the good hair, to get the good job, etc... But at what point do we live for us?

Meaning at what point do we say "Screw You, Expectation"?

I feel like that point on my journey is coming up and maybe has been building for some time now. Expectations are very slowly for me becoming something of the past...I hope that at some point I can say they are quite extinct.

I pray for wisdom through this journey of life & that I may come across people who assist in guiding me down my path. I live for the moments of inspiration of helping others and putting my own problems to the side, if only for a brief second in time.

Till Next Time, Keep Your Head Up & Stay Strong.

-KT

First Post!!

Hello Empty Blog with Zero Followers!

I have for sometime wanted to start a blog, but what do you say?! There are really only two types of blogs: People who write about what they care about & People who write what they think others care about. I'm hoping to combine both. I want to write something inspiring & funny...Because isn't that what life should be?

Life. Something that we all have to do, but even though we've been doing it for centuries, still can't figure out. When will we learn to live day to day & stop worrying? Isn't that what we do in society?! When will the next check come in?, How will I pay my bills? or What will happen with work? I promise...It will get better.

So....I may not think that I have a lot to say, but maybe I will inspire someone. And if just one person finds something though this blog, then it's worth it.

I invite you all to start a blog & voice your thoughts. Find your peace & live a fulfilled and content life...remember, we only get one!

Till next time -KT